I Finally Finished A Video Game
Just like with most things in my life, I've made a bad habit of being a consumer first when it comes to any of my hobbies. I even joked that collecting is its own separate hobby (something I'm working on stopping, btw) but truth be told I was just trying to justify my bad spending and how I use it to cope with life.
When I first bought my Switch, it was so I could play one game with my partner. Then it snowballed into watching for sales and buying as much of the games that I wanted as possible. Anything "cozy" game will be added to my system. I would even keep track of the new and upcoming releases so I ws first in line.
Did I ever play the games? Most of them, no. I haven't even opened it after paying for it and downloading it. It just takes up space there, staring at me. So one day I decided I was going to play and finish AT LEAST ONE of them. Most of my games take a long time to play because it's a lot of farming and collecting and stardew valley type stuff. So I settled for Jenny LeClue. I thought since it was a linear story type game, it would be easy to get through right?
I started it two years ago and only finished it this January 2026. I even got about 80% of my way through the whole thing before I decided I was wasting my time on the game. It was fun while I was playing! I wanted to keep playing, but for some reason I seem to be struggling with the idea that spending time sitting down playing video games with nothing 'tangible' to show for after is a waste of time.
Time and time again I get this way when I try to play games. Is this some toxic productivity mentality that's stuck in my brain? It's absolute nonsense, except I can't help but feel a lot of judgement towards myself when I think about it. sigh I wish I can afford more therapy man, I can't even game in peace without needing to have proof that I did something worthwhile. It's hard being a modern human sometimes.