re: everything is embarrassing
Came across this post while scrolling through Bubbles. They talked about how creation is about doing it even if the end result is bad. Because being bad at it is what will make you good. This is what I'm trying to do with my writing. For the longest time I only wrote on paper and nowhere online because I found my writing cringe.
I don't want to be a best selling author or anything, I just want to be good enough that I'm able to express myself fully without feeling like I'm misrepresenting myself. I also feel like I want to be more comfortable sharing my thoughts and some parts of my life online. Maybe it's for the validation of a community of people reading it, I don't know. I surely don't need to post anything about me on the internet but I need connections. I'm human after all.
Anyway, I'm down with embarrassing myself for the sake of improvement and freedom of self-expression. Even if what I write doesn't make sense it still goes out. Who knows, maybe I'll even finally end up on Youtube. Nahhhhhhhh.